Total Loser

I hate myself.  Bloom, my total bestie, is an AWESOME singer, she writes the BEST songs, she does the most AWESOME things, she is smart, she is pretty, she is my role model.  I would kill to be like her.  I try to be awesome like she is, but I'm just not like her.  She always is modest and says how she's not, but I KNOW she is, no matter what she says, she can't change my opinion, it's my opinion, not hers.  She's always so good in school, I get all F's.  She knows all the words and how to spell them.  She's hot and every time I see her, the guys always look at her.  She's so perfect, and guys love her, the only thing that loves me is mosquitos....  She's says I'm awesome, I mean yeah right!  No one has EVER even liked me, even she can get mad at me....  What I'm getting at, is that I gave up my dream.  I've ALWAYS wanted to be a singer, but I decided why bother!  I mean I obviously don't have talent, so I gave it up, along with playing guitar, now all I do is play in private and sing in private.  Tomorrow,  Bloom is coming over.  I am REALLY excited about the music video, but I can't sing good, and I'm just gonna make myself do it....  I hate my STUPID, stupid self.  Wish me luck, I'll need it....

Sapph